I think my sister is growing prettier and i'm growing fatterrrrrrrr
I'm still addicted to HSM gotta do it my way! Oh well, I don't think i will ever get over the song! Haha ok! um, N levels is next monday! ( 1st Oct) So people, wish me luck :D I've really nothing to blog because i've not been going out and shopping and all. Besides studying at home, I can't remember what i've been doing! Okay, recently i'm kinda disturbed by your messages, because they still a lot to me! So I hope you text me after 5 th oct alright? Thank you.
I've this wierd feeling that I won't be making it up and I think it's getting it's getting stronger. Despite all the revision i've been doing, I still feel the same way. I really need some affirmation that i'll be going up, someone who knows me well, please tell me i'll go up! Ok, but what's the point? I'll be deceiving myself actually. I guess i'll juz have to work hard. Prelims results are like booo hooo. But if i'll be using my prelims results for a guage i'll be promoted to sec 5, i'll still be able to make it. But my results are like risky. I hope they will mark our english papers leniently, because that's the only subject i'm worried about.. okay, you see seomtimes I juz sound so confident and sometimes it's totally opposite! How I wish I had Rachel's or Steph's marks! hahah i'll be the happiest girl in the world. So after my N levels, I've decided to divert all my attention to reading books! hahahaha thats really not me, but i'm gonna do it! haha I believe i'll improve somehow. So once again, I really hope I pass my N levels, because omg! Can you imagine if I fail??? It's the end of the world :( I would be really lost and I will not know what i'm gonna do with my life, my parents mention that they will teach me their grooming skillls and handover the shop for me to manage, and i'll further it in Amercia. But that's not what I want!!!!!! Till now, i can't think of any ambition that suits my character, and an ambition which I'll stick to! Hahah I've always love forensic pathologist! But, i'll have to stop dreaming about it because it's highly impossible! Oh well!
And now, If you are reading this, and kinda figured out that your the one i'm mentioning about, call me yea? I've already text you and said what I wanted to today! And I really hope you will think hard what are you gonna do with it, and tell me your answer fast. You said that your forced to put that as your MSN nick, but you see, i've known you for so long and I know you don't like being forced and you'll go your own way despite the forces and all, but you choose to listen and follow it, this means you agrees with it and follow! I really don't know what's on your mind, and I don't know what your thinking about. I'm confuessed if I should even believe what you send me. I know i've no right to tell you or ask why you use this and that, why you text this and that, why you go out with whosoever, but I think you know why i'm doing it! Okay i sound like i'm referring to my sister!! hahaha no! no! no! It's not her. And lastly, if you said that you still (..) than please prove it to me that it's somehow true. I'm so tired fo hanging on and I guess you are too. So once again, we should juz settle it once and for all. For a moment, I thought I've forgotten really forgotten everything. Thanks, for evoking them.
I'm scared for lit and geog!
